I've Decided

I've decided that I need to be writing more, whether its here on my blog, in my journal, or even just little lines in my notebook. I've never considered myself a great writer, probably because I have so much praise for those who I feel deserve the name.

I remember hating poetry when I was in elementary school, I didn't like the fact that it wasn't obvious to me. Yes, I could deal with rhymes like "school" and "cool", that I was alright with... but those dang haikus got me every time. But, I'd have to say that I've made a complete 180 since I've gotten older.

I love dissecting words, researching meanings, finding hidden treasures within the lines. I bought a pocket sized synonyms book that I keep in the desk by my bed.

I am a word nerd (see that rhyme there, I'm so clever).

& now I'm so grateful for the change. It may seem strange, but more often than not, I thank my Heavenly Father for my brain. I thank him for allowing me to think the way I do. I thank him for the insights he gives me, for allowing me to see the depth. I thank him for my understanding of color, and appreciation for those who can capture it. I thank him for the way he has allowed me to see the world.

& that is why I want to start writing. Not because I am any good at it, but because I want to be. Because I know that by trying to put my thoughts into words, or into something concrete, he will allow me to see more than I can now. I want to write because I want to understand, I want to see, I want to know. I want to write, because I want to become better in innumerable aspects of my life, and I believe that writing can get me there.

So excuse me if I start writing about things like cloud formations, or football, or how much I hate those ugly shape up shoes. I'm just practicing.